Deep Magic

A couple weekends ago, at the Influence Conference (catch the virtual experience), my heart
and mind were stretched, blown, moved, busted, blessed, and restored in so many good ways.
And in the midst of World War III that was taking place within me - I felt like God was
reminding me that I AM ENOUGH. It is enough if I am just faithful to the most
eminent task before me...

and that is living my vocation as a wife and mother to the fullest degree possible.
If I do nothing else, but love and mother my family well... it is enough.

All the other things - the dreams, the callings, the ministry opportunities are there and
seriously burning in my heart. Some days it all feels so heavy; a joyous burden, if that
makes any sense. I cry over the lives that I hope to touch. I am eager, chomping at the bit of hope,
that if I live my vocation well that God will bring all of the other things into His perfect order.

And you guys... He does.

I am often so overwhelmed with the condition of our world. Where are all the saints?
One day I'm ready to lead a rebellion, the next I'm making plans to pack up and move
my family to the North Pole to ride out "the end of the world."

But then I look at my sons. The greatest gifts I have been given this side of heaven -
and in turn, the greatest gifts I will leave - as a legacy - in this world. I know with my
whole heart that it is my honor, my duty, to love and form them well for the Father.
For the sake of the Kingdom. For the sake of the next generation that will walk this earth.

I want them to know the "deep magic", like that dear C.S. Lewis speaks of in
The Chronicles of Narnia. I want it to course through their blood. I want it seared
on their hearts. I don't want them to forget that when all the lights go out -
OUR GOD IS THERE. And that He must be given to the whole world.
That truth must reign.

If I accomplish nothing else in this life, I will die a happy woman...
knowing that I embraced the message that "I AM ENOUGH" and that it is MORE than
enough to raise a generation for Jesus Christ.



"...'for you I have prepared this.' She held up a small crystal phial:
it glittered as she moved it, and rays of white light sprang from her hand.
'In this phial,' she said, 'is caught the light of Earendil's star, set amid
the waters of my fountain. It will shine still brighter when night is about you.
May it be a light to you in dark places, when all other lights go out.'"
- The Fellowship of the Ring // J.R.R. Tolkien