What a mystery.
Do you know how much God loves you?
"God's love for Israel is compared to a father's love for his son.
His love for his people is stronger than a mother's for her children.
God loves his people more than a bridegroom his beloved; his love will be victorious
over even the worst infidelities and will extend to his most precious gift:
...'God so loved the world that he gave his only Son'...
CCC 219 / John 3:16
I look at the cross in all of its saving glory. I see a broken body. Broken for me?
Blood shed for a girl who can't go 24 hours without sinning?
A worthy, holy, blameless man crucified for a guilty party?
I close my eyes and I can hear the beat of His heart as the world, in silence, awaits His final breath.
thump... thump... thump... the rhythm is singing my name.
"Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed,
yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken..."
Blood and water gush forth from His heart. A fountain of mercy... and I want to run.
I feel unworthy. So I beat myself up. Why? Because it just feels better. I HATE being a burden.
I think that I understand better today than ever before
- in the vocation of marriage and motherhood -
what it means to SACRIFICE OUT OF LOVE for someone.
There is NOTHING I would not do for my spouse or child.
Barring all things that would separate me from God.
It's not a burden, but a welcomed JOY. I want to give my life.
Just as He wanted to give His life for me. For me. Repeat that to yourself, Brittany.
I can see NOW that LOVE - all consuming, wild, passionate LOVE - held Christ to the cross that day.
Love for me. I still have a hard time accepting that. I want to crawl up there next to Him and just
lay my head on His chest. I want to feel His heart beat... and breathe with Him. In and out. Forever.
Let this song bless you. A love song between God and His beloved.
You are worth it. He loves you more than you know.