So there's this woman and she has a blog.
I stumbled upon her space one afternoon and knew I had met a kindred spirit.
She delivers messages with the grace of a spiritual warrior and I always leave Lily & Light feeling
refreshed - rejuvenated - reawakened in my relationship with God.
Meet Kristin. She's pretty awesome.
Right now she is sharing a series on SUBMISSION.
I know what that word makes me think of...
I have visions of doormat behavior, prison cells, and lots of crying.
But Kristin will take your hand and lead you into the beauty of abandonment to God.
I know that I struggle. Oh I can talk the talk:
"Dear God, I give you EVERYTHING. Do with me as YOU will. Amen." Blah blah blah.
But when the rubber meets the road and God ASKS me for something...
you can bet I squirm, cringe, cry, throw a tantrum, put my hands on my hips, and demand an explanation.
My kids have been sick off and on for over two weeks now.
I have made myself sick bending over backwards to meet their needs...
I have been mixing smoothies. I have been making homemade juice.
I have been rocking them to bed. I have been watching HOURS UPON HOURS of boy movies.
I have been wiping noses. I have been drying tears.
I... I... I... I... I... I... I... I... I... I... I... I... I...
I have been trying and not once... not ONCE have I asked God to step in and help me.
Not once have I submitted my children to God in this matter.
*hangs head in shame*
I finally let go and handed it all over to God last night.
My kids didn't wake up HEALED, but I woke up with a new attitude...
an attitude of surrender and peace.
I think sometimes as parents we want to be the answer for our children.
But it can't be that way. We must not let ourselves even go there.
I will let Kristin take it from here. Go check out her series that is happening NOW over at Lily & Light!!!
Let me know what you think!!! I bet you won't walk away unchanged.
you are TOO good to me.
ReplyDeletei know that place: pouty face, hands on hips, refusing to move. we are more like a mule than a child of God, right? i just find peace in knowing that He understands this and is willing to meet us every time and open up a new opportunity for us to hand it all over.
sometimes it is in the form of a husband who is "insensitive" or "mean"... but that's a whole new post on Monday :)
hoping your boys are well. you're doing great darlin xoxo
oooooh can't wait to see what you've got going for Monday!!! sounds good!
Deletehappy you are so open and willing to share. you really are a gift.
we are doing a little better today - thank you, Lord! XO